At my job in Dallas, I hired a girl who had something different in her attitude about the world, and we became friends. I told her that I would talk about anything but politics or religion. She said: “What about philosophy?” I said, “yes, I like philosophy”, and she gave me a copy of The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis. As I read it, I was intrigued. That started my search again. I started reading the Bible, but not understanding.

I was searching for interpretation but not for the message itself. God became a reality little by little through the love of my friends. I made them suffer with heavy opposition. Their patience and consistency were an example for me. I saw in them something that I didn’t have, and I became jealous. I started talking to God, and I even got married by a pastor. I questioned God, and one day I found Psalm 139. Search me oh Lord…

I got divorced after long sessions of counseling with the same pastor that married us. (I had learned that my husband was married to two other women, one in Chile and one in Argentina.)

I came to realize that real love was not what I thought. I learned about Jesus’ disciples, and I saw His love. Learning about God’s people in the Bible, I also learned that my degree and my position and my condo were not important to Him. But my life, my honest dedication to Him, was. In the Bible, God’s people were fisherman, tax collectors, prostitutes, a doctor, a former persecutor and jailer of Christians. They followed Jesus leaving behind good or bad positions in life.

Madeleine L’Angle, a Christian writer, quotes a writer speaking about “writing” as a huge lake, “There are big rivers that feed the lake like Charles Dickens and Leon Tolstoy, and there are mere trickles, representing unknown authors, but they all feed the lake.” So to feed the lake is to serve, to make the lake bigger. Jesus came to be a servant, to obey His Father. We think of serving as a burden. I used to see Christians as fanatics against non-Christians, but not as servants of non-Christians as Jesus was. Jesus’ commandment was to love each other, not kill the ones that don’t love Him.

The soldiers that came to arrest Jesus had their minds set on killing him. That is why they did not see the miracle that Jesus did putting back the ear of the guard that Peter attacked with his sword. My question today is what do we have our minds set on as Christians? Do we have our minds set on the miracle of helping others and serving them and conquering them through love?

1 John 3
¹⁶ By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us. And we also ought to lay down our lives for the brethren. 

1 John 4
⁷ Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God.
¹¹ Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.
²⁰ If someone says, “I love God,” and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen, how can he love God whom he has not seen? ²¹ And this commandment we have from Him: that he who loves God must love his brother also.